He speaks loudly.

Today was kind of a rough day for me, or oh wait-this whole week has been. I have just been sort of "down" lately about the fact that I am not at the same place as everyone around me is-employed with a JOB, a real one! I've also been sulking because this apartment thing is just NOT working out for me, for us...I just long for a house and really a quote on quote "normal" life at this point. I have been praying so long and so hard for this situation and just have felt like one moment my hopes are UP UP UP and then the next second they are crushed leaving me to feel lower than before. Ok, enough with the depresso I know, but this is a blog and I guess that's where you share your "emotions", ha.

Well, I had been pretty excited about two long term sub positions that would take up the rest of this school year-and had been really hoping that at least one would work out. Today I got an email telling me it had been filled, but that they'd keep my application on file. I read this as I was teaching my gifted 2nd and 3rd graders today (who I love) and just about cried on the spot. I thought WHY? Why can't I just get a job! What's so wrong with me? We've also been scouring the house market as well and there are so many that I love-but that we just can't do unless I get a job too. So with what felt like a rain cloud hanging over my head as I finished out the day, I drove home. I had really prayed a lot today just for hope, for anything, because I feel that I'm at rock bottom with this right now.

So, did I expect to be spoken to as soon as I logged on to my computer today? No, not really, but then let me remind you, our God works in mysterious ways. Today for some reason my Joel Olsteen daily message didn't come through to my inbox this morning-which it always does (here's God working through my main man Joel again). But this was the message...(forgive me this is going to be a long post)

Embrace Your Season
Today's Scripture
“To everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under the heaven” (Ecclesiastes 3:1).
Today's Word from Joel and Victoria
God has ordained seasons in your life. It’s easy to get frustrated when our dreams aren’t coming to pass on our timetable. When that happens, we have to submit our plans to Him and trust that He has a better plan. Understand that in God’s Kingdom, every season is not harvest. There are plowing seasons. There are planting seasons. There are watering seasons. And sure, we would love for every season to be a time of increase, but without the other seasons, we wouldn’t be prepared. It’s during the plowing seasons when God’s bringing issues to light that we need to deal with. He’s getting us prepared for promotion. If you’re not making as much progress as you would like, the key is to not lose any ground. Don’t go backwards. Hold your position by keeping an attitude of faith and expectancy, even when it’s hard. Keep plowing by speaking the Word daily. As you do, you’ll pass the test, and God promises your due season is coming!
A Prayer for Today
Father in Heaven, thank You for Your faithfulness in all seasons of my life. I trust that my time is coming, and I choose to remain faithful. I submit my ways to You today and trust that You have the best plan for my life. I love You and praise Your name today. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

I just sat there, like ok-I feel like I was just spoken directly to. How was that not written for me? I'm so thankful that God didn't deliver that e-mail until after I got home, it was just what I needed to hear. But then...it gets better. (Keep reading, I swear I'm almost done.)

I check every school district's website within like a 50 mile radius of here and to my suprise in Greenfield (where our house is) a job for a first grade teacher for the rest of the year was sitting there staring me in the face. I began to weep and couldn't believe how faithful the Lord was. Now, I don't have the job yet-but I have a good feeling about this. Please keep me in your prayers as I hope you are inspired by my personal story to have faith for things going on in your own life.

God speaks loudly and He will tell you what you need to hear if your ears are open and you're ready to listen.